"Reflecting God's Love"
By: Mama Foster
During this Christmas season, I keep feeling like I should pinch myself because this cannot possibly be my life. I am the happiest I have ever been in my life. I didn't know that it would take 3 years of heartache and 10 foster kids, some still here - most not, to get here.
There are certain verses in the Bible that ring in my heart every day. "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." "Greater love has no man than this, that he lay down his life for his friend." "Whatever you do to the least of these you do unto me." Those verses have kept me going every time I wanted to give up and run away from this little world these kids are stuck in.
As I put up my Christmas tree this year, I saw the faces of my foster kids that have left on the glass ornaments that I made for my tree. The tears that used to come immediately because I missed them so much have been replaced by a smile just remembering them, remembering how much I love them, but I have a peace I didn't have while going through it.
In the Bible it says, "all things work together for good to those who love HIM, for those who are called according to HIS purpose," Ladies (and perhaps Gentlemen), we are the called. We have put our money where our mouth is and laid our hearts out on the table. When God saw we needed a Savior, HE sent one. A beautiful baby born in the most humble way... He gave us HIS son. It wasn't easy. It didn't feel good and then HE had to see HIS son go through the unthinkable. Being a foster mom is a risk. It is hard. It is a need that needs to be filled. It is watching our kids sometimes go through terrible things and being willing to pick up the pieces over and over.
This Christmas I am "on the other side" for right this minute. I am getting to enjoy my kids instead of having to worry about visits and court day and possible reunification that seems to be a terrible idea. But I have no regrets, and if you have followed my story, I have seen miracles.
Christmas in foster care can be hard, but Christmas isn't supposed to be about a certain day. It is about your life. It is about living in a way that reflects what God has done for us. It is about reflecting God's love for us by loving kids that we didn't give birth to, but fell in love with anyway. Enjoy your kids whether you will have them on Christmas day or not, and know that you are not alone. You're not doing this in vain because someday you will be on the other side of this too, and it is worth the wait.